Category Archives: recovery

another view of the tatoosh range

two types of compliments

i’ve noticed in my travels two types of complements, the implicit and explicit compliment. when someone compliments something that you have done, they have delivered an implicit compliment. when someone offers a compliment about you they have delivered an explicit complement. let’s view some examples. Continue reading

bird in the reeds

my two best pillars of support

pillars of support
i find true intimacy
today that is rare

people think badness
they try to tear them down, they
say cause depression

to them i say this
efe off! my pillars are strong

offer such support

i hate it when people claim my wellness tools don’t work. worse yet, they make claims that they somehow contribute to my depression!

twice, my counselor has seriously questioned my involvement in my support groups. he wanted to make sure that participating in the groups somehow didn’t contribute to my depression.

this morning, I shared with Mary that one of my blog friends had to change their blog name (you know who you are. 😉) because their boss considered it inappropriate. Mary inquired if following depression blogs somehow contribute to my depression. I felt an immediate reaction of both intense anger and deep sadness.
i say, wtf???!!! somehow, where I find some of my best support contributes to my depression???!!! that’s efeing hilarious!
these two places I can rip off my mask and totally expose the  real me. additionally, judgements come few and far between. other than these two places, i know of no other safe places, not Mary, not my therapist. they each have their own agendas and judgements.
additionally, in my pillars, i see people going to equal depths as they talk about their struggles, their troubled relationships, their struggles at work, their struggles with life and even potentially the thought of taking their own life. people in these two parts of my life expose the real part of their life far better than I see elsewhere in society. the sugar coating doesn’t exist and not only do I appreciate that, but I admire it.
that exposure has a name and it goes by the name of intimacy. I would think that would be a goal that everyone on this planets strived for. people here pull back their mask and expose the real them. that only works because of the respect and empathy of having traveled a similar path. we get each other and that makes it easier to go to depths not experienced by the rest of society.that’s their lose.
so, screw the rest of the world, or at least the people who question the value of my meetings and blog friends. with my two pillars, i get to share and be a part of people’s life like no other place i know. thanks to all of you for sharing intimately and for making this a safe place. I am thankful because here, I  come closest to a true interchange of feelings and a respect for these acts of vulnerability.
blue boat getting away?

robbed rights

…We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness…

the framers of the constitution eloquently wrote in their governing document things that they saw as important acknowledgements for their government. their writings have the same impact today as they had over two centuries ago.

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wintery island

my self-care struggle defined

self care struggle—pain
another anxiety
lurks around corners
recently, followers have read about self care struggle and self care struggle-part deux. they had a common theme of self care seemingly going well and as planned yet the results were as if an emotional mine had gone off leaving emotional parts of me here and there.

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