After reading wish i felt best but I don’t-this time with passion, my friend had the nerve to give a gentle nudge and use my words against me.
…some things that could bring happiness and joy to you. what fills your tank, that helps you from not feeling drained…
sometimes i really hate the chemical processes that goes on in my grey matter. let me explain.
i received training and now co-facilitate a nami connection group. these groups are set up specifically for people who face some kind of mental disorder so they can get together and discuss their issues as it relates to their disorder. i have been facilitating for about a month.
irn our last episode about selfies, we learned of young british women who waste, i mean spend 5 hours a week planning and taking selfies. (i think i let my personal opinion on selfies slip through.)
who could believe that it could get worse? but it does.
i shared my first pass of wishing i felt better but i don’t with a friend. she said i had a good use of words. i believe that she selected those words partly in case she had to lower the boom. she, in her usual gentle way picked out some the good she heard.
then, in her usual deft and gentle manner, she suggested that i come at this form another direction, coming from a direction of compassion, this time. by doing that, the chance of Mary hearing and accepting my message I want to send would greatly increase.
initially, i had an internal battle with that idea. i want my cathartic feelings to be expressed; I wanted Mary to experience some of my gentle and subtle rage. but the war quickly ended and i begrudgingly came around to see the value of her point. below, find my second attempt to share with Mary, my current state of being, this time with at least an inkling of compassion.
(the opinions expressed here are mine and strictly mine. they come from my years of observation and do not have any scientific bases. take what you want.)
have you ever noticed the many flavors of ice cream? even sticking to the basics, you can have vanilla, chocolate and even strawberry. these three flavors represent 75% of the ice cream consumed. or perhaps these flavors can even get mixed together, like in the good old standby, neapolitan. that way someone can have a little of each flavor.
this happened to me.
really.
i’m not lying.
Mary and i are trying to plan for a talk we are going to at a nearby hospital. we both had our cars and want to take only one car to the talk. oh, and we find ourselves in different locations. i walk by a row of cubies at work. a mutual friend of ours offers me a ride to the talk. with that, Mary and i would only have one car at the talk and we can swing by and pick up my car afterwards. i inquire on if they are planning to head in that general direction to which they tell me no. i think that would be silly for them to go that far out of their way…
i awake. i check my clock. it reads 5:49. Mary and i lay in bed and begin a discussion…
that’s right, a dream within a dream!
I remember a movie a few years ago. a few people were being trained to insert themselves into other people’s dream. the process required quite a bit of work. in the movie, in order to prevent some dastardly deed, they needed to insert themselves into a dream into a dream into a dream and if i remember correctly, into a another dream. so, they were now three or four dreams deep. well, i’ve got the first insertion without even training.
one down, just another 1 or 2 to go!
my brief experiment with bupropion at 450mg has come to an end. sigh.
they just did a study in england. the results show that women from the age of 16-25 spend 5 hours a week taking selfies .
warning:dating myself-i don’t I’ve spend 5 minutes in my life taking selfies.
facing off with the big d 