reflections off the water

i feel pain

my good friend had to put his dog down yesterday. i’m in pain.

my good friend, whom i admire, who seemingly is in a solid marital relationship, kicked out her husband yesterday. i’m in pain.

unfortunately, my pain doesn’t come from the events; my pain comes from not feeling any pain. i feel numb to everything. i seem to have “a who gives a damn attitude”.

I want to feel pain i want to care. get me out of the hell hole i find myself in.

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About bipolarsojourner

i have struggled with episodic depression for years. i then received a diagnosis of being bipolar, only to find out i didn’t. ends up my psychiatrist really meant to say that multiple bouts of depression are often best treated like bipolar. i had already started this blog as bipolar sojourner and didn't want to switch it over. i am documenting my journeys through my depression jungle.

7 thoughts on “i feel pain

  1. araneus1

    You noticed………… sometimes that’s enough, besides pain induced by other people’s misfortune, ain’t that much fun.
    hang in there.
    Terry

    Reply

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